My little wish list.

1. 13" MacBook Pro
2. Nikon - Coolpix P100 10.3-Megapixel Digital Camera
3. iPod Touch 32GB
4. 26" Huffy Woman's Cranbrook Cruiser Mint Green

Ever since I was little there was always something new I wanted, wether it be a new Barbie, the new GameBoy or a new cell phone there was always something on my wish list. Sometimes I got it and sometimes I didn't. I don't know how as a child I dealt with not getting the things I wanted. I would imagine most children throw a fit when mommy or daddy don't come through with the new it toy they wanted. But for some reason I understood whenever my mom told me there wasn't any money for what I wanted and I would have to wait. Wait, it stings to think about that word especially when I see other people who don't deserve to have nice things fault them. It pains me to see my mother struggle day after after and only have enough to give me the bare minimum. But after years of waiting I have realized that I don't need all these things I don't need a fancy camera or a fancy laptop, I don't even need the bike. I have my mother and I know lots of people that can't say that. I know people that have been through hell and back and what have I done? Nothing. I've gone to school which is all that is being asked of me and I don't even excel in that. I guess no matter how much I may think I deserve certain things I really don't and that's fine with me. I have to accept the fact that I wont always get what I am asking for, but when and IF I do I should not only thank my mother but I should appreciate the fact that she was willing to put me before anyone else. I love my mother for that and for THAT I don't think I will ever be able to show my deep appreciation. So as for my "wish list" I think i'll leave a lone for now and when I slowly start to get the things I want, i'll be happy.(: (not that I'm not happy now I am trust me :D )

Pepperoni Delight.

So today when I got home from swimming lessons (which I will talk about later) I was EXTREMELY hungry, as most people are after they go swimming. I thought to myself "breakfast time what should I eat?" and the first thing that came to my mind was eggs(: Yummy eggs, but plain ol' scrambled eggs wouldn't fill me up, so I decided to spice up my morning. I went looking through my empty fridge and got some ham to put in my eggs. Now you maybe be thinking 'oh wow scrambled eggs and ham, what makes that so good', what made my eggs so yummy was the next thing I found, Pepperoni When I saw the pepperoni I got the sudden urge to put them in my eggs along with the ham, what an amazing idea that turned out to be. My eggs were spicy and warm and had a huge amount of flavor in them all thanks to that round little piece of heaven we call pepperoni.

Are we going downhill?

These past 7 months with him have given me a deeper understanding of what it truly means to be in love. But these past few days I have tormented myself into thinking that he may not be the one. Each day I spend without him I think of a new reason why I shouldn't be with him. I feel abandoned and forgotten, but I know it is not his fault. I am the one hurting our relationship. I have put in the time to think of any possible reason why he and I should no longer be together but it is only because I can not deal with his absence. If I were to look deep into this problem I would see that it is just a manifestation of my own imagination. I am putting too much time into what is not there rather than noticing that I have a truly wonderful guy that loves me more than anyone I know (other than my mother of course). I should be grateful for the fact that despite my rude behavior he is still by my side determined to make this work. My thoughts and jealousy are what will ruin this relationship, NOT his absence. So to answer my own question, Are we going downhill, no we are not. We are barely on the rise.