Are we going downhill?

These past 7 months with him have given me a deeper understanding of what it truly means to be in love. But these past few days I have tormented myself into thinking that he may not be the one. Each day I spend without him I think of a new reason why I shouldn't be with him. I feel abandoned and forgotten, but I know it is not his fault. I am the one hurting our relationship. I have put in the time to think of any possible reason why he and I should no longer be together but it is only because I can not deal with his absence. If I were to look deep into this problem I would see that it is just a manifestation of my own imagination. I am putting too much time into what is not there rather than noticing that I have a truly wonderful guy that loves me more than anyone I know (other than my mother of course). I should be grateful for the fact that despite my rude behavior he is still by my side determined to make this work. My thoughts and jealousy are what will ruin this relationship, NOT his absence. So to answer my own question, Are we going downhill, no we are not. We are barely on the rise.